Random rumblings to begin my life as a blogger:
Only 5 more days of this terrible summer. Im trying to look at the positives because i know there must be some.
Everyday I wake up usually two minutes before my alarm and groan. Then i wait for my alarm.
I am now terrified of growing up...literally terrified. I cant do this. I cant live this monotonously. All I want is a golden retriever and a house for him to play in. But I am surrounded by people who are consumed with themselves and money. Its mind numbing. At least I get to see living examples of what I do not want to become.
There HAS to be more out there than this terrible corporate jungle. I know there is but the trouble is finding it. I know my job wont be the most exciting thing ever, but I dont want to hate it. Am i too picky? Do most people hate what they do for 9 hrs of the day only to go home and spend 1.5 hours complaining about it? I want to be part of something that matters. And I know all new grads say that...but i do...ive seen the money...I want no part in what it makes a person become.
God is so good. I feel so distant from Him, from myself, from my friends. Something is happening and I dont know exactly what, or who I am becoming, but I am excited in a blind sort of way. I know He has a plan, and I am thankful that I dont have one...that way I know the plan is His.
On a sports related note, because im sure you wondered when I would mention something sports related (yes, i waited this long...i dont have cable...i cant watch 24/7) ...I cannot wait for football season to start. The cowboys need to win, or i am going to quit sports (thats for dad) or maybe just quit the cowboys. There is something about sports that i just love and I dont understand how a person could not. You get to be part of something bigger than yourself...something that you dont have any control over. You get to be excited or sad or scared with other people. Ahhhh only one more month.
I wish I could skip work tomorrow and go to a cubs game and go eat at a fun restaurant and drive a fast car...Ferris Bueller...youre my hero.
1 comment:
Erin!!! I'm so glad you took my advice and joined this blog thing. Don't you feel better now that you discussed how angry you were? I bet you aren't as angry anymore.
I'm glad you enjoy the simple things in life. I am 110% behind you on a dog and a house thing. And about a 1000% behind you on the growing up thing.
I just saw a Corona commercial and I wanted so badly to be laying in the hammock on the beach with those people. And in HD I felt like for a brief 30 seconds I was on the beach with those people. Too bad....
The good news is its Friday.
Don't ever quit sports. That might be the best advice I ever give anyone.
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