I am so proud of myself for posting something two days in a row. This proves how bored I am.
I am now sitting on the floor in my empty apartment in this hell-hole of a town. Staring at two computers...one for work...one for fun. The work one is obviously getting a lot of rest.
I was talking to Megan earlier about we are at a time in our lives when nothing lasts long...whether good or bad. Semesters are only 15 weeks then we get a completely different change of classes. Summers are consumed with school or internships or travel. All of which last about as long as brett favre can be retired. We will never have a time like this again in our lives. Pretty soon we will be working jobs that seem endless. We will be married to someone for hopefully the rest of our lives. We will have kids that NEVER leave us alone. Things become permanent pretty soon, and Ive never thought about life in that sense. I feel like I am waiting for things to be permanent, wishing even, but I have failed to fully appreciated the freedom that I have, the being able to change at ease. This next semester is hopefully going to be awesome. I really want to travel on the weekends...far away. I HAVE NO HOME...NO WHERE I WANT TO BE.
I know that the Kern River Pipeline exists. Weird.
This empty apt is depressing. I have no cable. I think creepers are looking in my window.
Im listening to a playlist consisting of Mayer, Colbie, and Brett in preparation for the concert next weekend. Know less of Johns songs than i thought. Maybe im not even going. Havent talked to the person im going with...think she forgot i exist...probably sold my ticket to a bum on the street.
I dont even have a chair to sit in. Ow. And i have no bed.
What a fast summer.
I need to get better at not rambling. That is my goal for next time. But seeing as Keelie is the only one who knows this exists...I dont think she will care.
SHOUT OUT TO KEELIE WASHER. COOLEST KID ON THE BLOCK UNLESS TONY ROMO LIVES ON HER BLOCK.
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- erin
- Somewhere, Texas, Bangladesh
- yesterday i was a driver...today i am a walker...tomorrow i will be a flyer.
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and now i know you exist. maybe the rest of your summer won't be so bad...
I know you exist too!!!!!
That makes three of us who know you exist. Oh Erin, I am sad that you have not enjoyed your summer. But in a way, what if this summer would have never happened? And what if you discovered that you didn't want to do this 10 years down the road when you were already stuck in it? I believe that God is already preparing you for what He has for you in ways you don't even know (like you mentioned, HIS plan.) And I just wanted to encourage you with something that has encouraged me:
"The LORD WILL work out his plans for my life--for your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever. Don't abandon me, for you made me." Psalm 138:8
That is a promise to you. He WILL work them out. Don't cut Him short. He WILL.
"For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I WILL make a pathway through the wilderness. I WILL create rivers in the dry wasteland." Isaiah 43:19
Again, He WILL. God is not the killjoy. He is the Author of Adventure and Enjoyment! And even though this summer was really yucky, know that He has exciting things for you. For YOU.
I know this is insanely long, but I hope that you are encouraged by His words. I have been dealing with this on small levels all this year, and it may hit me just as hard as it hit you next semester. But I trust and know that He is faithful and He is always good!
Sad I missed you this weekend...see you soon!
P.S. I have to admit that I somewhat hope the Cowboys do it this year. Don't ask why I feel that way. Just thought you should know. (Maybe it's because I am worried of what will happen to you if they don't.)
Its awesome that I was gone for a week and now I can read about your life as it happened for a week.
I will continue these comments on the next posts.
Erin, although it was an 'awful' summer...I think you might have learned a lot.
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